Mommy Was Wrong

So I will have to eat my words...turns out Adelyn was indeed teething these past two weeks or so. I felt the tooth last night - at least I have an answer as to why she was sooo cranky and unbearable for about a week last week. That helps me mentally because I feel like, if it's just short term, its manageable. If that's just her personality, that's not manageable (in my mind). So, Greg was right and I was wrong, but I'm happy to be wrong in this case.

How are things going otherwise? Well, on a personal (maybe too personal) note, I got my period today - that also is a good thing because it helps to explain my downward spiral in the last week. The teething combined with PMS is just NOT a great combination in my world. As for the PMS I am starting to feel better and a little more upbeat, although I'm still finding work to be a great challenge.

I find it very hard to get motivated at work because of my energy level. I only work two days, but that is definitely long enough right now. Don't get me wrong, I like my job, but because of the lingering depression it seems like such a feat to put on that face and do my job. I feel terrible because I want to do the best job I can but sometimes I fall short. I just pray that people don't see through me...that I can put on a face brave enough to weather the storm.

And what about FACS? Well, I haven't heard back from them since Monday - I have a meeting with them and IMPACT (mental health support team) this afternoon, when I will hear what my fate is in terms of spending time with Adelyn. I hope I can keep my two hours alone with her...I have been doing well at this, like this morning I took her to the Early Year's Centre and to the mall. This afternoon I will take her grocery shopping. When I go out with her I am fine, it's when I'm at home and she's crying and upset that I can't take it.

So hopefully FACS will hear me out and let me keep things as they are. I will find out in a few hours...